A year ago today the sun rose. And I shared this song on my facebook.
I had few words to share, as we’d just barely made it through the night before. Clive had emergency heart surgery a year ago yesterday, and the aftermath of that was devastating. He was still alive, but not without lots of machines to keep him stable. He’d lost his full blood volume 3 times over throughout the surgery and the night. We were helpless. We were moved up to the PICU with new staff and new surroundings, and we were so very tired and completely terrified.
But the sun rose that next day. I remember the light coming into room 423 and thinking that this was the first morning that Clive had seen sunlight. This room had a huge window, unlike the dark NICU room. And I think Clive was getting more and more true glimpses of Jesus that morning (and in the next 10 days) as he was surrounded by the light pouring in that window.
It meant so much to me that the sun rose that day, that there was some measure of steadfastness in the chaotic world around me. It was a reminder of God's presence.
And the sun continues to rise each day. Sometimes it's so hidden by the clouds, so impossible to see. Sometimes the nights are so dark it's hard to imagine a time of light. But it's steadfastly there.
After a long medical update on facebook, Sam shared this a year ago today:
"For the next few days everything is going to be hour by hour and day by day. There will be many small battles to overcome, and we feel so unprepared for them.
I'll let you guys in on a secret. Rachel and I aren't heroes, and we're not warriors. We are scared parents trusting in a God who is a warrior and who sent to this world a hero, and He wins. He wins. And no matter what we and Clive get to win with him. Keep praying and we'll do our best to keep you updated."
Amen. Jesus wins.
John 1:5 In the midst of it, the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.
Psalm 18:28 For it is you who light my lamp; the Lord my God lightens my darkness.
Isaiah 2:8 Come, let us walk in the light of the Lord.
Micah 7:8 Rejoice not over me, O my enemy; when I fall, I shall rise; when I sit in darkness, the Lord will be a light to me.
2 Corinthians 4:6 For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.